Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Again?!? C'mon, God!

So, we're in the hospital again. It is 9:20pm on Feb. 3, 2009. We've been here since about 6:30pm. It is issues with diabetes, but the patient this time isn't Ethan, it is Mary Hannah. In retrospect, we've seen the signs over the past week. She's been drinking a lot, going pee more than normal... I noticed her breath was stinky-sweet and commented on it the other day. But again, we wrote it off to her being sick recently. However, yesterday, MH started complaining of some unusual things and Amelia got nervous and we questioned whether we should check her blood sugar. Part of us didn't want to check because we thought we might be overreacting because of our experience with Ethan. But, we ultimately figured that it was a small price to pay to make us feel a little less anxious by assuring us that there was nothing wrong with her blood sugar.
So, this afternoon, I got out Ethan's glucometer and we all checked our blood. Mine was 104 (normal adult BG is 80-120). Nana's was 119. Ethan was running pretty high at 440, but I gave him some insulin from his pump and he was good to go... then I checked Mary Hannah. Her blood glucose was 494! Amelia checked her later this evening and it was only down to 414. So, we brought her to Hendrick and they confirmed our fears. MH has been super brave and they've got her on a saline drip to help flush her blood out and get her BG back to normal. Tomorrow, I suppose we'll get with her doctor and start working on a plan to get her on an insulin regimen. Thank you all for your concern. Medically, MH is fine and we know how to deal with diabetes... but emotionally, we're kind of reeling. We've come to terms with Ethan.... but ... man.. this sucks. More ranting/venting later. Keep us in your prayers. We love you all.

-jeff & am

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Tagged and Bagged

I don't usually give in to the phenomenon of "I've tagged you in this note, now you have to follow the instructions and tag others..." but there are exceptions to almost every rule:

25 Random things about me.
I won’t call them facts, because facts don’t exist. I learned that recently from a discussion about post-modernism. Facts are a social construct, created to ease our anxiety about being powerless in the face of the random chaos in which we exist. Facts are only how we choose to understand and make sense of life. Facts are the enemy of truth. That said, let’s proceed:

1. I have a secret dream to one day star in a production of “The Man of La Mancha” as Don Quixote. If I don’t get the lead role, I’d gladly play Sancho Panza if I can manage the falsetto needed.

2. I’ve discovered that I enjoy having someone else wash my hair. Apparently, the Wal-Mart haircut places include a shampoo in the cost of a cut… so instead of paying $7.00 for a cheap haircut, I’ll pay $12.95 for a cut and a wash. Sometimes you have to ask them for the shampoo, but since you’re ALREADY paying for it, make sure you get it. I now factor the amount of my tip on how long/vigorously/luxuriously my scalp is massaged.

3. I love being a dad. This isn’t a secret (I hope), but it is well worth mentioning. When we were first married, Amelia was worried about my fatherhood ambitions when I was reluctant to hold other people’s babies or dote on small children. As it turns out, I am the best daddy in the world (just ask my kids or my wife!). It makes a huge difference when it is your kid.

4. Fatherhood has given me some experiences I never thought I’d have. For instance, I have lost 13 games in a row of Candyland. I’ve seen the movie Cars over two hundred times (okay, props to my buddy, Timothy Dodd for the last 150). For almost a year, I came home everyday to hear my son greet me : “Mr. Incredible! You’re home!” To which I would reply “Thanks, Dash.” I have developed a more than passable method for fixing hair in pigtails. Wow, I could go on and on… but I’ve got 21 more things to come up with…

5. Until I got my iPod touch recently, I have never had much of a desire to listen to my own personal music (ala walkman, personal cd player). Now, I’m really enjoying throwing on my headphones and zoning out.

6. The only interest I have in any professional sport is for social reasons. I secretly laugh at people who know the stats for their favorite teams and players and who are obsessed with keeping track of the same. The fact that I am intimately familiar with the 5,000+ Star Wars:CCG cards I own is in no way related to my friend’s obsession(s) with sports.

7. At the recommendation of my friend, Matt Loomis, I purchased a Mac two years ago and I haven’t regretted it for a moment.

8. I usually wear a pair of shoes until they are worn out. Then I buy another pair. I have a pair of black dress shoes and a pair of sneakers. Any other shoes I own are the worn out ones that I just haven’t thrown out yet.

9. I prefer regular Oreos ™ to Double-Stuft.

10. I went to the Texas State competition in Cross Examination Debate my Senior Year of high school. My partner, Hayley Hollis, and I lost the first two rounds and spent the rest of the day goofing off.

11. I spent from 2nd grade to 7th grade living in Europe. My father was in the Air Force and we lived in Athens, Greece, Kaiserslautern, Germany, and Kleine Brogel, Belgium. I also attended school at an international school, AFCENT, in Holland.

12. I have never broken any of my own bones.

13. I fell in love on my honeymoon…with Aussie Cheese Fries from Outback Steakhouse. I’d never eaten there before and Amelia assured me it would be awesome. It was. It is.

14. I used to prefer Peanut M&Ms™ to regular ones. Now, I prefer the original M&Ms™.

15. I played Everquest, a MMORPG, for almost 5 years. My highest level character was a 73 Gnome Necromancer named Abihu. I played primarily on the Prexus server. I was not addicted. I quit on my own, with no intervention required.

16. I have worked consecutive jobs, without being unemployed, since I was 16 years old, with the exception of an emotionally devastating layoff from my last ministerial position, which resulted in a 3 month stretch where I was (in my semi-official opinion) almost clinically depressed.

17. I have recently taken up the hobby of photography, which I absolutely LOVE. With the exception of an elective class in my undergraduate days, I am pretty much self-taught (with some able coaching and inspiration from some photography friends). Check out my website: http://emerysmemories.googlepages.com or look at my albums on Facebook.

18. Until I came to college, I didn’t have any really close friends (with one or two exceptions)

19. I climbed (but did not summit) Mt. Whitney in Colorado.

20. I part my hair the way I do because I think that if I part it the way it naturally falls, I look too much like my dad. (He’s not bad looking, but I just wanted to be different)

21. The simplest thing that gives me the most joy is opening the cabinet at home and pulling out a tumbler from Eskimo Joes. They are the perfect size to hold the quantity of beverage (plus ice) that I enjoy.

22. I love jokes. I pride myself on being able to recognize 90% of the jokes that I hear. I am a bit of a joke snob and almost can’t stop myself from ruining a joke that I know when someone else is telling it. I really have to hold back. On the other hand, when I hear a joke that I’ve never heard before, I get very excited. For my all time favorite joke, check out: http://jde95f.googlepages.com/hahahahahahhahhaaha!

23. In my high school senior yearbook, I was voted “Most Flirtatious”

24. I am aware that I talk too fast, sometime slurring my words. I know that I am a know-it-all. However, I like to think that I am also kind with my words, generous with my praise and generally positive in my disposition. In my mind, being really nice somehow balances out being an arrogant snob.

25. I make a wonderful French Toast meal.


Ok, that is enough for now. Thanks to Jeremy for tagging me and giving me an excellent reason to avoid writing casenotes. I won’t perpetuate this procrastination tool of Satan by tagging anyone else, but my intense desire for validation demands that I make this request: If you’ve read this and enjoyed learning anything new about me, please comment. ☺ Have a great day!

Friday, January 16, 2009

Hi, all. Time for a quick (really!) survey. Take a minute and give a few clicks to help satisfy my curiousity.



Thanks for your help. Send your friends to this blog and have them click to help me out as well. Thanks!
-jeff

Thursday, December 25, 2008

A little taste of Christmas


Hello, all. Thanks for stopping by. There are a few readers who are waiting for videos/pictures of our tribute to greed and gluttony last night, so here you go. Just feel fortunate that I took time away from playing with my camera, portable printer, new lenses, spy 90 degree angle adapter, DVDs and Wii to put this little post together!

(Rich, Jen and fam... thanks so much!)




And Grammy, you are so special and we love you so much! Hope you all had a wonderful Christmas. Blessings in the new year. Stay tuned for an update with more pictures and a year-end recap. Love you all!

Monday, December 1, 2008

time for a crazygonuts quiz

So I got this email....

1. Put your iTunes on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG TITLE DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 friends who might enjoy doing the meme as well as the person you got the meme from.

Questions:

1) IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
The Motions by Matthew West
It’s all okay when you’re just going through the motions.

2) WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
You’ll be in my heart by Phil Collins
I’ve been told that I have the bad habit of finding the best in people…

3) WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Everyday People by Billy Joel
I like people. Leave the pretension at home

4) HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Made to worship by Chris Tomlin
And everyday!

5) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Life means so much by Chris Rice
Hahahaha I was just thinking, “Man, these are deep questions for a random quiz to answer!”

6) WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Smell the color 9 by Chris Rice
That’s how I roll…

7) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Sea of Faces by Kutless
Who is my mother? My father?

8) WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Race car ya ya’s by Cake
… where you can’t change lanes. Where fuzzy dice still hang proudly like testicles from rearview mirrors

9) WHAT IS 2+2?
Sometimes love by Chris Rice
Would you believe I have several Chris Rice albums in my playlist?

10) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
You are my king by Newsboys
My best friend… Jesus is my best friend… Jesus is my best friend… I am not alone.

11) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
12 days of Christmas by Reliant K
It is still only 1 day, Amelia, no matter what the song says…

12) WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Cornerstone by Day of Fire
I knew it was pivotal to my history…

13) WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Safe and Sound by Matthew West
And happy… and rich… and …

14) WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Back where you belong by Newsong
…. By my side, baby.

15) WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Sadie Hawkins Dance by Reliant K
Dunno… I got nuthin’

16) WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
You raise me up by Josh Groban
Innuendo, anyone?

17) WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
I go to extremes by Billy Joel
If it is my funeral, apparently, I did!


18) WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Opera Singer by Cake
I play the part of the Fat Lady ™

19) WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
I’m Lion-O by Reliant K
Thunder, thunder, thunder cats! Ho!

20) WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Why does this always happen to me by Weird Al Yankovic
If you met them, you’d understand.


21) WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
I’m gettin’ nuttin’ for Christmas by Reliant K
Apparently, I ain’t been nuttin’ but BAD.

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Clinical Depression

The holidays are a warm and happy time for many people. However, the same time of year is lonely and depressing for others. There are many reasons for depression, from the obvious grief and loss of loved ones and relationships, but for some people who suffer from chronic clinical depression... bipolar disorder... dysthymic disorder... the reasons aren't so obvious.

I don't understand depression. I'm a glass half full kind of guy. I once had a friend who struggled with depression who told me, "Jeff, you're a nice guy. You just don't know. Depression is a place you might visit, but you won't ever live there. I've lived there." He was intimating that the experience of clinical depression is beyond description. He could have spent all day trying to help me understand what it was like, but I still wouldn't understand.

In the past few years, I've been studying therapy and how to help people who are hurting, who are suffering. I've been taught about depression, the chemical imbalances in the brain that lead to cycles of mania and depression, about the dysfunctional patterns in families, in relationships that lead people to despair.

Every now and again, though I know that I can't hope to completely understand, I come across something that gives me a glimpse into the unknown hurt that some people experience:

David Foster Wallace, a novelist, who suffered from clinical depression wrote in Infinite Jest that depression is "lonely on a level that cannot be conveyed ... Everything is part of the problem, and there is no solution. It is a hell for one."

What a terrible place to live.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

Guy's weekend update

Hello, dear readers. This weekend I'm visiting with several of my good friends. We're eating unhealthy foods, staying up way too late and engaging in one of the geeky-est things we do: role-playing games.

By the numbers:

Miles driven: 182
Ounces of liquids consumed: 66
Oreos eaten: 1 package (not sure how many in there) The others may have a had a few.
Hours slept: 5
Dark Side Force Hssiss (lizard like thing) slain: 5
Times a "natural 20" was rolled: 2
Odd and disturbing children's books read: 1 (see below)

Jay came across a book that he checked out from the post library and he saved it just for me. Enjoy the story time! More later.